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I can't remember what it feels like to be happy...
My smile no longer shrouded in sincerity.
It is like a heartbreak masquerade, fooling everyone;
Exhausted, I remove my mask when the day is done.
I'm a professional at what I do: I hide what I feel -
When I get hurt, I pretend like it is no big deal.
In reality, it's killing me; feel my heart breaking
The sad part? My friends don't know that I'm faking.
I can't remember the sound of my laughter any more;
Feels odd when I smile, like I've never done it before.
My heart soaring with joy - well, that feeling is gone
Dreaming about another guy that isn't you feels wrong.
It is like I am cursed, you never leave my mind
However, you - you didn't pause, just left me behind.
It feels wrong to see you and still feel butterflies
My heart still racing when I look into your eyes.
My head keeps spinning when you're in the vicinity
Even after all the feelings left, I can't feel happy.
I smile, not sincerely, but just to show you I'm fine,
A masquerade to show you didn't break this heart of mine.

~C♡
"No man is worth your tears and the one who is won't make you cry" ~ Unknown

Date: 10/03/2012
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lightningmaster2001 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You are fantastic!Like professional writer good!I love this piece of Awesomeness because it is beautifully written.Also I can relate to this completely you really touched my shattering heart!
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FiyeroTigelaar Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely amazing, beautifully written and a subject to which i can relate in a way
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2012  Student Writer
:iconlachoirplz: :iconthanksplz:

I really appreciate the compliment :D
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FiyeroTigelaar Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You are very welcome
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Lil-Dojo Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow...this is absolutely amazing!!
It actually got me to start thinking about myself and my feelings, which I don't really do that much, and I realized that I am the same way...
Oh well, forget about that. Your poetry is AWEOME!
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you! Wow, I'm so glad you can relate, it's really encouraging to know you like my poetry :aww: It's fantastic that my poem got you thinking; remember not to sell yourself short - it's good to have some "me-time" sometimes:)
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Lil-Dojo Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome!! And thank you. I'm glad your poetry got me thinking as well.
Thank you so much :)
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Adonael Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Heartfelt piece and it will be relatable as well.

As a footnote, I like the quote you use in your description :)
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Student Writer
Thanks so much! Yeah, the quote slots in nicely with the poem :)
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Adonael Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
No worries :)
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NoXCaiN Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is really lovely
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Student Writer
Thank youu :aww:
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Koronue Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012
heartbreak is one of those incredibly painful things that won't heal easy. it makes time drag by and seem endless. it devours the thoughts with sorrow, negativity, and utter despair. there is no 'light at the end of the tunnel' because you can't even see the tunnel yet. any thought of happiness is pulled away. there is breakdown after breakdown. crying until there is nothing at all left, screaming until you no longer have air, or desire to make another sound. everyone in this world knows what some form of pain feels like. i feel that heartbreak is the worst. This darkness of it may seem eternal, it may feel as if there will never be a way out. try to keep busy. try to find something that takes away the hurt. it will be hard. just when you think you're out and free, you may be blindsided with a new wave of hurt. time. friends. getting out of yer own head. all these things will help, but only YOU can decide when you are ready to put an end to it. i don't know you but i feel for you. my own similar experience makes me hope for you, that you will be able to one day pull out of the pain and darkness. <3
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Student Writer
I agree, heartbreak is definitely the worst form of pain! And thank you so much for understanding - I'm reading your comment and going, "uh-huh, exactly what I feel" :) I'm staying positive that one day, this pain and sadness will just be a distant memory. Thanks for your lovely comment, much appreciated! :hug:
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Koronue Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012
your welcome! everyone needs to know they aren't totally alone. staying positive is the best thing you could do. <3
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NicolaWingedDeity Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You have no idea how many people out there live this every single day... kinda comforting to know u're not alone thanks for sharing
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Student Writer
You're very welcome, yeah it definitely helps to know others go through this too :)
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NicolaWingedDeity Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
^^
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Hoxkiss Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012
I love this. I've been feeling these things for awhile now. :) i think this piece is wonderful!!!
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you very much :aww:
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WinterofFire Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love it, and I can relate to this.
Nice Quote by the way.
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you very much! :)
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WinterofFire Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome
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Homicidal-Pretzelman Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I like the poem, but I disagree with the quote in your description. Relationships with tears from one another are natural; sometimes people do not want to be hurt, but it is inevitable. Pain can strengthen couples. People make mistakes. No one is obviously perfect. C8
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there-is-not-enough Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012   General Artist
Beautiful! I love it!
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Eddie-Sayako Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist
This is exactly how I've been feeling for almost half of the year now.
However, the person still can make me feel butterflies in stomach, and I feel as I fall in love pnce again and again as I see the person. Although all of the poem.. well, I could just write the same.
Just maybe not as well as you did. It's an amazing job. Not only from emotional, but also from technical side. I mean ehymes and rhythm. Good job, I love it. :)
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you very much! I appreciate your critique :D And it's good to know someone feels/has felt the same! :)
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Eddie-Sayako Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist
You're welcome. ^^
I still feel like that, it also is good when I know someone else has felt it. :) It's not a good feeling, I don;t say that, but it somehow makes you feel not so alone in this.
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BoyUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Student Interface Designer
Amazing talent! Keep up the good work :)
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ScarletSynthesia Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Beautiful~
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GirlUndefined Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Student Writer
Thank youu :)
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ScarletSynthesia Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome~ *hugs*
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